At first, I thought it was my new prescription for one contact lens to focus on distance and one to focus on seeing the computer screen. But my balance was changing. I did not notice this while doing everyday activities, but I did notice a new wobble while trying to balance on the ball of my foot when standing on one leg. Dancers require excellent balance for every aspect of their art. When my pirouettes became less confident, I began to seek out a solution beyond my contact lens experiment.
As women who have gone through menopause at least a decade ago, we may one day look in the mirror and say, “what happened to my hair?” On my bathroom sink counter, I have a photo of myself at age 40 with my first son, Andrew, and my husband. My hair looks great, as it always did. But gradually, over twenty years of dying with a commercial hair dye containing ammonia, and then not with ammonia, and basically just living through the stresses of balancing a career and family, my hair became thin and brittle.
I was talking to my friend last week, Lawrence Ewing, Executive Director of Marin Ballet, and he used the phrase, “beauty awakens.” Our conversation was revolving around dance workshops, concerts, awards and the process of assisting dancers and audiences in emerging from an imposed sleep. We talked about it as a process of leaving the virtual world to discover, awaken, re-invent, the connections between the live performer and the live audience.
When was the last time you were misread by a colleague over a zoom conference or a “mask-to-mask” meeting? Were you mystified by a lack of response to your business presentation? Or do you feel you are “overlooked” when there is a choice for creating teams?
There are advantages to persevering with a question or thought which rises up during the early teens and then appears and reappears throughout one’s life. For me this question was a philosophical one. I felt a need to understand the very nature of dance.